Transforming suffering into strength

I am a 20 year old girl who lives in Kuala Lumpur. I have the privilege of having good education and a comfortable lifestyle. I have a family too, which seems to be perfect in the eyes of many. Considering that we are financially wealthy, they think to themselves, ‘What problems could she have?’. However, […]

I am better than my addiction

 I am currently living with my elder brother, my dad and my aunt. It all begin with the passing of my mum in 2007 when I was only 9 years old before my First Holy Communion. It started towards the end of 2014 to 2016, where my brother suffered from severe depression. It was due […]

Hope is bigger than depression

Brave was not a word I was able to identify with. I was always afraid of the dark, afraid of making friends and afraid of the world in general. But never brave. But ironically, that was the meaning of my name. Bernadette, meaning, brave as a bear. You see, I was never the type who […]

My long fight with food

I’ve been a self-diagnosed bulimic for 4 years now. I’ve never really talked to anyone about this but the pain gets unbearable day by day. I’m hoping by sharing my story, I will find some help. I’m interested in hearing people’s responses that would help me deal with this. It started back in Form 2. […]

Dark Clouds, Blue Sky

I never realised I am mentally ill until I was prescribed anti-depressants & anti-psychotics. I had always thought my condition was normal- emotions and negative thoughts. It’s really hard to identify the start of the dark journey because I had been feeling that way for a very long time. I had no idea why I […]

My life is beautiful despite OCD

Arshad is my name! Shad, if you can’t pronounce it fully, but I do like my name. Its Arabic meaning “Most Honest, Best Guided, or/and Most Wise. (Thanks Mak, Ayah.) I am 25 years old, a Chartered Accountant (in the making), Formula One enthusiast, Sports Photographer, and most recently, a Mental Health Activist with ‘Minda Initiative’ […]

Sheikh Shamir: My Life with OCD

We asked Malaysians to share their experience with OCD with us. Join the conversation #MYlifewithOCD. Meet Sheikh Shamir a 23 year old student with a great sense of humour! : Hi Sheikh Shamir! Thanks for agreeing to talk to us. Sheikh Shamir: Hi there, no problemo : Why don’t you tell me a bit about yourself […]

Beauty and the beast

Beauty and the beast. That’s what I think of when I think of my OCD and me. My OCD is the beast, but I’m the one trapped. I never thought I had OCD. I assumed that I just followed my mom’s footsteps since my mom is a totally clean freak. So I thought my behavior […]

Troubled but not defeated

Recovery. i have fallen so hard i have hit rock bottom i have been on a spiral that takes me only downwards i have been invisible, for as long as i can remember i have isolated my soul i have tried to let myself give up i have stayed six-feet underground, mentally i have been […]

What depression taught me

You may think this is going to be a list of how i almost killed myself about 10 times, or how i was stuck in the psychiatric ward but no, it isn’t. 1. Depression taught me to rely on God. I found my faith and realized that my God is bigger than my mental illness. […]

A love poem to suicide

I am thinking about countless pills, tight ropes and sharp knives, like a soul with no road to drive, bury my whole body alive, look at me as I am broken pen drive.   Dear suicide, You are among the negativity that didn’t give me hopes, but a bunch of tangled ropes and blood that […]

Discovering ADHD

I recently realized that all my fantastic multitasking skills, impulsive behaviors, my high level of constant boredom was not normal but might be due to inattention. I am highly distractible and the “zone” people refer to remains a mystery to me.It never bothered me much before, I just thought I needed to put in more […]

A journey and a new start

  Aku terkedu bila mendapat message di phone aku. Message dari sahabat baik aku menghentam aku dan mengingatkan aku kenapa hidup aku ni tak guna di hantar bertubi-tubi sampai kemurungan aku yang aku berjaya kawal selama beberapa hari ni terus terganggu. Aku dah cuba kawal mental dan emosi aku yang rapuh akibat banyak faktor. “Cacat. […]

Relentless thoughts

I’ve been spending late nights outside lately, trying to delay going home as much as possible. Trying to delay being alone, because being alone is being with the devil. Whispering lies to my ears, lies that I know isn’t true. But what drives me insane is not because I believe those lies, but because it […]

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