Troubled but not defeated

Recovery.

i have fallen so hard

i have hit rock bottom

i have been on a spiral that takes me only downwards

i have been invisible, for as long as i can remember

i have isolated my soul

i have tried to let myself give up

i have stayed six-feet underground, mentally

i have been choked with despair

i have been swallowed by nerves

i have been consumed by fear, my mind and body withering

i have been torn into pieces, paper thin

i have been ripped off my opinion, my bones crying to be heard

i have been broken down into tiny fragments, each embedded on paper

i have left my thoughts everywhere;

in people, in books, in songs, in journals, in the rain,

but here i am-

i am on my way upwards

i am collecting the bits and pieces, i will not try to connect them

i am carving my path towards my dreams

i am being heard, i am a voice worth listening to

i am a part of someone

i am a part of something

i am growing

i am accepting

i am learning

my mind will be reborn, my body and soul surrendered to faith

my thoughts untangled, my feelings splattered like paint

my spirit is no longer blank-

i am no longer a hole, i am whole.

Hello there! Loshni by birth, Losh by the public and Joe by choice. Absolutely convinced that writing is what I was born to do, an avid reader and a Harry Potter and Game of Thrones enthusiast. Traveling is the ultimate dream. Qualified with self-proclaimed PhD in procrastination. I could survive on cheese naan and iced Milo-O, no joke.

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