My Life With Bipolar and Borderline Personality Disorder Emotions are always a tricky thing for me. As a teenager, I experienced constant episodes of feeling depressed, crying in my room watching the ceiling fan spin slowly. Occasionally, I would experience episodes of feeling too happy, too reckless, too euphoric. I did not understand that these […]
May 2017
I am better than my addiction
I am currently living with my elder brother, my dad and my aunt. It all begin with the passing of my mum in 2007 when I was only 9 years old before my First Holy Communion. It started towards the end of 2014 to 2016, where my brother suffered from severe depression. It was due […]
Relate Let’s Talk: What depression feels like to me
What does my depression feels like? My depression threw me down a rabbit hole where time is irrelevant. I would lock my door and suddenly, four days had gone by! Three days without a proper shower. Four days of eating cereal, biscuits and tidbits. Four days of piling things up in my room and four […]
Relate Let’s Talk: What depression and anxiety feel like to me
Trigger warning What does depression feel like to me? You can’t see any beauty in life. Life is like a dead end. Depression is this sadness feeling you can’t lift up no matter what you do, no matter how great your life is going on. Anxiety is worrying about everything and being restless. Imagine having […]
Hope is bigger than depression
Brave was not a word I was able to identify with. I was always afraid of the dark, afraid of making friends and afraid of the world in general. But never brave. But ironically, that was the meaning of my name. Bernadette, meaning, brave as a bear. You see, I was never the type who […]
My long fight with food
I’ve been a self-diagnosed bulimic for 4 years now. I’ve never really talked to anyone about this but the pain gets unbearable day by day. I’m hoping by sharing my story, I will find some help. I’m interested in hearing people’s responses that would help me deal with this. It started back in Form 2. […]
